do you know what kind of people I really admire? - people that have a really good relationship with their parents. I mean, it's not like I don't get along with them at all, I KNOW that my parents love me and would do anything for me but.. we've never been really close. like, I never had that "mother-dauther" relationship girls use to have. I never tell my mom anything that has to do with my emotions or my own personal problems. if I would be in big trouble of course I'd tell her but that's not what I mean. the little (or not so little) things in life that bother you. I'd rather tell a friend than my mom or dad. everything is kind of.. distanced. I mean it's sad I know, but I'm not even sure if I would like to change it for now. I guess it's too late for that kind of 'change', although I think, no I know that my mom would like to know everything that happens in my life. and I know that it bothers her that I'm practically never telling her anything that hasn't to do with job, school or any of those 'formal' things. random stuff, that's what she wants to hear. but I just can't. it would be weird for me, an awkward situation because I know my mom. I know that she would ask ten million questions about everything and everyone until I explode, yell at her and promise myself to never ever tell her anything again. she's not that kind of person that is able to just LISTEN to you. no, she has to ask you questions afterwards and she keeps asking and asking and coming back to that topic all week. doesn't she understand that people just need to get things off their chest sometimes? without being asked anything, just listened to? no, I guess that's too much to ask for.. so yeah.
see? that's what I want. being able to just say (or write) everything that's on my mind at that moment WITHOUT being attacked with questions. what could you ask about it anyway? dahh human beings can be so irritating and freakin ANNOYINGGGG. just leave me the hell alone and don't ASK me. and I'll be happy. haha I sound like a psycho don't I? ;D I know that I'm overreacting (a bit) but that's what happens if you ask too much !!